So was just thinking that maybe this is where I should do my daily journaling instead of writing my thoughts down on paper. Not sure which method I will prefer, perhaps the paper because then it won’t be posted for perhaps all the world to gaze upon. But typing on my new mechanical clicky keyboard is a fun experience so maybe this version will achieve the upperhand. I am a fan of fountain pens though so it will be a rough battle to see which wins out! I guess I just feel I need an outlet and I probably will switch back and forth between hard and digitial copies. It seems tough these days to want to be so manual in such a digital world. When I went to school everything was hand written and now all of a sudden 5 years later everything is on a computer, no handwriting allowed at all. It seems so strange, but I guess we are one step closer to “The Oasis”. What ya gonna do? Am I right? God I sound so dumb talking into the void…maybe this is what your mind and soul need every once in a while or maybe I’m just rambling because I’m nervous for my first “fake” evidence case tomorrow. I keep calling it that but it’s just the next step of my training, it’s not necessarily “fake”. Maybe I’m just trying to down play it because I’m always nervous about taking the next serious step in my career. But honestly I am so excited and happy to finally be in the field of forensics, doing what I really want to do. I hope that I will be successful and I guess that’s why I am so nervous, because if I fail at this…what’s left you know. This is what I spent 6 years of school on and countless dollars and hours of studying for. I just want to do well and be proud of my accomplishments and I probably am putting way too much pressure on myself. I am still in training and I know I won’t be 100 percent perfect all of the time but that is really what we try to strive for. I am trying to learn all I can the first time round and that’s not really how everything is learned. You must make mistakes in order to be better at things and I guess I just get frustrated with myself when I feel like I’m not living up to my potential so to speak. But sometimes I think I am much too hard on myself. Fatal flaw to those who want to be successful i suppose. Anyway I think I will end off here and perhaps continue tomorrow. Still not sure if this is how I want to expel my thoughts out of my brain yet, I guess time will tell.
Thanks if you’re reading this. Until next time.
Cornnnhead
Cornnnhead 